In The Deep

Growing up in the Land of 10,000 Lakes (i.e. on the border of Minnesota) I was forced to take swimming lessons.

I felt awkward and uncoordinated. Every year when lessons began I’d panic, fearful of looking like a fool. It didn’t help that I became the oldest in my swim group–lagging behind my peers in all ways aquatic.


Finally I passed Beginners and moved up to Advanced and then the Intermediate class. With each progression, I moved into deeper water. Eventually I met the goal and could keep myself alive and afloat when my feet were far from the bottom of the pool.

Lately I have been in the deep with God. I’ve been experiencing suffering in my family, health, relationships and ministry. Little by little in the pain and darkness, God has drawn me into deeper waters.

Getting to know God, however, has been the opposite of swim lessons. Instead of passing tests and learning to rescue myself, I’ve sunk to the bottom. I have let dreams, relationships, and most importantly my ego drop away like airless life savers.

God is becoming the air I breathe, the Spirit that moves me, the heart that beats in me. I’m starting to understand moment by moment what Paul meant when he told the Galatians, “I am not my own, I have been crucified with Christ …

When we suffer, let’s sink into His infinite love. Nothing–absolutely nothing!–is deeper than that.

God, You are amazing. Help us to know You and believe You. You hold us in the suffering and comfort us. May we relax in the reality of Your love for us. Amen.

3 Replies to “In The Deep”

  1. You know those little arm floaties that keep kids afloat? Well, I think God gives us friends and family to encircle us and hold us up and He is the “air” that fills us to help each other as well! You are one of my favorite “floaties”! Love you!

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